Futur - Downward Spiral of Life

After a while… I decided to write again and i begin this time with the title ‘Futur’

Why futur? - For those who doesn’t know the meaning, roughly it means loss of spirit to be in Allah’s path of da’wah & tarbiyah, everything that relates to it. Basically removing oneself from the environment either partially or completely.

Do correct me if Im wrong.

 What is da’wah? Its the calling to Islam. Tarbiyah - a learning process.

Fundamentally, the path of da’wah & tarbiyah is never easy. Its a road full of turbulence and requires your utmost commitment and sacrifices. Once in a while.. Mr/Ms Futur, an accomplice of the ‘S’ - will set him/herself within you whether you like it or not.

So, what happened to me actually? After the long, exhausting exam… the turmoil, the complicated atmosphere.. the sinking feeling that the world is closing itself into you. It makes you feel like the world is just… ugh.. and you want to run away from it.

The question is.. who do you run to? You either have option A or option B.
Option A - Allah
Option B - Other than Allah

Deep down inside, your soul is screaming, let go to Allah!!~!~ But physically, you are going against Him. Why?

This happened to me a lot.. trust me, its not the only time I felt like this. I had to drag myself literally to get back on His path. Had to psycho myself that I would be the one losing out big time if I don’t hurry up and get back on the train.

I know the level of faith in everybody has its ups and downs. But, how long are we going to be controlled by Mr/Mrs Futur? Are we not in control of ourselves? Are we not the choices that we make. If so, who are we in the first place? A slave to Allah or Mr/Mrs Futur?

Every time i delve into my realm of futur… I often forgot that Allah is the one who owns me. The forgetfulness and the abysmal of ignorance to what truly matters became my pillar of doom.

So dear friends and loved ones… please, don’t become like me. We all know that we are better than that. Everyday is a tarbiyah, a learning process for you and me. Yes, rough times will come and and try to deviate you from the Al-Quddus - The Most Holy Allah.

But, I truly believe that Allah wouldn’t let you go so easily without giving warning signs and signals. I felt like… yeah, I can become futur, but Allah’s not letting me go that easily…

As I was travelling to Brisbane, I came across Al-Muddassir 74:1-5 in the book Al-Raheeq Al Makhtum… while reading that, i know Allah’s talking to me directly. It was like ‘Hey, hey… don’t be futur kay. You don’t have time for that. Get a move on’.

Funny but true - Da’wah n Tarbiyah doesn’t need us. We need it to keep ourselves sane. To become a real human. To redefine our purpose in life of what’s important.

So, to all Futur-ian’s out there. Its not too late. If you missed the previous train. You have the next train coming. Get on it and start living.

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